As easy as packing up my bags and fly. No?

Hmmm.....I have a feeling that my holidays won't be on the boring department this year. Aside from leisure and work-involved trip, I also have other personal projects and things-to-do list for next year preparation, which also means the need to fork out more money. Hmmm....

For example, my ultimate wish, that is to go to the States next year is not one easy wish to fulfill. I mean it is very much possible but it also means I have to take into considerations a few aspects in order to make it come true.

One, I still haven't got a passport. Two, I still haven't got a Visa.
Do you know applying for Visa is not as easy as applying for passport? First and foremost, we have to go to Alliance Bank and pay them around RM500 for application fee. Then, you will need to go online to schedule an appointment with the US Embassy in KL. This is not an appointment that you can make according to your own time. It must be according to the interview schedule. In my case, I hope they will hold a session during the school holidays, otherwise I need to apply for leaves. You must appear for the interview within 1 year from the Alliance Bank fee receipt's date of purchase. Or else, another RM500 to fork out?
So yeah, then of course you have to book a flight to KL cos the interview will only be in the US Embassy in KL. Means more ka-ching! Don't even let me start on the US flight tickets. Heh. Only after they have found out that you are not a psycho (exaggeration. hehe), have brought and completed all the necessary documents and most importantly passed the interview, will they grant you the precious Visa. So yeah, going to the US ( nowadays ) for the first time is not as easy as going to other countries. Which means, if I ever want to really really fulfill my wish to go to the States next year, I must pay for the application fee asap in order to kick-start everything.
On a personal note, I also have to take into consideration whether my sis will be there when the time comes. Cos it's kinda awkward if she's not there. Heheh.
Nevertheless, this whole thing somehow excites me. After all, it's the journey that counts. :)

You're my Everything...

Lyrics | Michael Buble lyrics - Everything lyrics

How I wish a guy would sing this to me...

I love you Michael Buble....

My Sexy Song

Careless Whisper - George Michael

I feel so unsure,
As I take your hand and lead you to the dance floor.
As the music dies...
Something in your eyes,
Calls to mind a silver screen,
And all its sad goodbyes.

CHORUS
I'm never gonna dance again,
Guilty feet have got no rhythm.
Though it's easy to pretend,
I know you're not a fool.
I should have known better than to cheat a friend,
And waste this chance that I'd been given.
So I'm never gonna dance again,
The way I danced with you.

ooh ooh

Time can never mend,
The careless whisper of a good friend.
To the heart and mind,
Ignorance is kind
There's no comfort in the truth,
Pain is the all you'll find.

CHORUS
I'm never gonna dance again,
Guilty feet have got no rhythm.
Though it's easy to pretend,
I know you're not a fool.
I should have known better than to cheat a friend,
And waste this chance that I'd been given.
So I'm never gonna dance again,
The way I danced with you.

Tonight the music seems so loud,
I wish that we could lose this crowd.
Maybe it's better this way,
We'd hurt each other with the things we want to say.

We could have been so good together,
We could have lived this dance forever...
But now, who's gonna dance with me?
Please stay.

CHORUS
And I'm never gonna dance again,
Guilty feet have got no rhythm.
Though it's easy to pretend,
I know you're not a fool.
I should have known better than to cheat a friend,
And waste this chance that I'd been given.
So I'm never gonna dance again,
The way I danced with you.

ooh ooh

Now that you're gone...
Now that you're gone...
Now that you're gone...
Was what I did so wrong?
So wrong that you had to leave me alone?

I think this is one of the sexiest songs in history. I could listen to it and fantasize away...Hehe

Not really in a good mood

"I only want the best for you and me." For the first time, it sounded so meaningless to me. I'm tired of suppressing everything. I'm tired of holding back. The last time I checked, the more I held back, the more I rebelled.
I'm tempted to say, go to hell.

Getaway Dreams...

White sandy beaches,
Warm blue waters,
Lush green palm trees,
A quiet place to be,
Sitting there, just you and me.

Yellow warmth of sun,
Red hot heat of love,
Inky blackness of night,
Stars overhead a silvery light,
Making love, just you and me.

Umbrella drinks,
And holding hands,
Soft kisses and gentle sighs,
Cloudless deep skies,
Together forever, just you and I.

Liquid warmth,
Washing in slow,
Gritty sand below,
Hand in hand we know,
Hearts as one, just you and I.

Glittery light,
To mark our way,
Echoes of time,
The end of today,
With the moon over the sea,
Never more in love, just you and me.

Soft ocean breezes,
White capped waves,
Tears of joy in my eye,
With the moon over high,
No one else in the world, just you and I.

"Kristi Day"

Voices in my head..

It's 3.22 am. Been a while since I stayed up this late. Not healthy I know. Just that I'm hooked to the net. Right now am using dial-up. Yep, the same 'ol 1515. Don't know how much it's gonna cost me next month cos I've been using it religiously these holidays.
My previous post in this blog was a bit emotional. I even shedd some tears and poured out everything while chatting with a friend. Who am I fooling? If I have moved on, I wouldn't dread looking at happy couple pictures. The truth is I still can't get him out of my mind. It's just difficult when all this while, I'd imagined the future with him and suddenly everything's just gone. When I talked about hope, the hope is to be with him once again. A few times when I heard voices in my head that he is the one. Not sure if the voices are of my own or from up above. But who am I to make sure everything happens my way. I'm just confused. Desperately need to listen to God and not to myself.

:(

I still dread looking at couple pictures. What is wrong with me? :(